Ready...Or Not

I sit here every day, like I know a lot of people do.  I am so ready to take the step in my life to find someone who loves me for who I am.  I am ready for a relationship.  Yet I can't seem to find one.  I think it is something wrong with me.  I think that I am repulsive or just sad, and I hate it.  I know I am the type of person to act like it doesn't bother me, and that I am happy being who I am, but truth is I am not.  I just want to feel love, that is what all people want though....and I just don't see that happening.  I see myself becoming the crazy cat lady, and ending up all alone.

Jokes on you

I'm fairly certain that each of you have had this moment, you say something you think is funny, maybe kind of flirty, then BAM!  You realize you should just insert foot in mouth, right then and there.  I can honestly say, I have insert foot in mouth moments every single day, probably multiple times a day.  I get making fun and pretending to be mad of a a little while, but come one its been over 24 hours.  Let it go.  For instance, if I jokingly call someone cooler than you, don't still hate me the next day, and make the person I said it to act the same way.  Like thats just sketchy.  I now realize I need to learn to not say anything that could potentially be viewed as rude, cruel, mean, ignorant, etc.  So to those of you who daily accidentally offend or piss off, I feel your pain.  I will no longer make jokes. period.  I screwed up a potentially really good thing, and I didn't even mean to.  I guess there really is a fine line between funny and cruel, though I don't think calling one person cooler than another is cruel, but that is just my personal definition.  There you go, everyone needs to learn to stop joking around, it's that simple.  Good luck to you.....and to me.

Mixed Signals

Okay boys....  This one is for you.  Why do you think that you can walk up, start talking to a girl, lead her on, then just change the way you act, the way you treat her? This is what I hate.  Like as soon as I started showing interest in you, the way you were showing it stopped.  Does that mean you no longer are, or you don't think you need to, or what?  Personally I would like to see the interest just a little more, so I don't feel annoying or weird for talking to you a lot.  Do not get me wrong, I love the whole hard to get, but I'm kind of over it with this one.  He seems to be pretty perfect, but then again, I am probably misreading the signs.  Just like I normally do.  Anyway, if you see this, and you know you do this to a girl, give her a break.  Show her a little more interest so she knows that you want her to also.  After all, we know girls can't live without boys, but boys can't live without girls either.

Those Stressful Days

Everyone has them, those days where you don't want to get out of bed, you just want to curl up and sleep, or pretty much do anything but go to class or work, or wherever you have to be.  Today is one of those days for me.  I have tests all day on Wednesday, and I realize that today is my last normal day before I have to study my butt off for the whole day tomorrow.  Crazy test days, they really stress me out.  So here I sent, and I realize I am going to make the best of my free day before studying, tonight at work, I am going to ask a certain someone to go to dinner with me.  That will make it all worth while, right?  I think so, I am not usually this outgoing, but I am going to do it!  I will be sure to keep you posted! :)  These stressful days can kiss my @ss

Surrounded by Love

These past few days, I've learned that in college, the kids who call themselves your friends, truly mean it.  Yesterday, I was just having a rough day, drama from home was creeping into my life up here.  I am so happy to say, that all my friends were there for me. They didn't seem bothered by the fact that I was sad, and they didn't get annoyed when I wanted to talk about it.  That is something that few people can say.  I felt loved, and I felt wanted, even when I was sad.  In high school, i never really had many friends, and now, I feel like my life couldn't get any better than this.  I am determined to be the best person I can be.  A huge thank you to those who help me along the way.  Your love means so much to me.

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

There are a few things that girls should do.  One of them, is RESPECT yourself.  Through my life, I have learned, that if you respect yourself, others will also.  Girls these days no longer look have any self confidence, and that should not be the case.  Society these days gives young women such distorted views, and creates so many problems to the younger generation.  Why do you think that eating disorders are so prominent?  It is due to the fact that whenever a girl opens a magazine, all they see are stick think models, who are "perfect."  This is not the way girls should look at themselves.  Any one girl can be beautiful, if she views herself in that way, and has the self-confidence to show her true colors to those around her.

Unattractive...I think so

You know those days where you just wonder, what makes me so horribly unattractive? Today was one of those days for me...Like I see these girls walking around hand in hand with all these guys and I'm like, here I am, forever alone.  I know, be patient, but seriously!  Do these people know how hard it is to be patient?  It is so super hard!!!  I want it now.  So i just sit there at dinner and think to myself here's a cupcake, way more satisfying than a guy, plus this cupcake won't break my heart.  It's a win win, I know.  I just like to ponder sometimes, why can't my patients pay off now.

The beginning

They say that college is the time when you will find yourself.   Yep....that is definitely true.  I've been here what four weeks, and I can already see who I am.  I have found some of the best friends, and created the best memories that I have so far.  I think I am using this blog to document everything worthwhile in my life, so that others, and myself can look back, and laugh, cry, or just simply smile at the fact that your life really is what you make of it.  It can be as good or as bad as you want it to be, no matter your background.  You have to decide to be positive and make YOUR life worth living.